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Keeping up with the Florida Panthers (aka Sara Civian interviews Matthew)
EP Rinkside: What's something away from the rink that’s making you happy these days?
Matthew Tkachuk: I would say, just, I'm lucky at this time of year. Especially across the whole country, it seems like it's freezing everywhere. It's beautiful down in Florida. And we just moved into our new practice rink recently, so that's been awesome.
EP: There was a quote floating around from (head coach Paul Maurice) from before the nine-game win streak and before you started getting hot on the scoresheet. He said people are going to say “Matthew Tkachuk is back,” and he's going to say you never left. Did you see that?
MT: I did, yes.
EP: How did you feel about it, and what's your relationship with him like?
MT: Well, Paul's been a very important part of my last few years. He’s one of, if not the best, coaches that I've ever played with. He's been very important for my development, and I just think that he trusts my game, and I trust my game. I wouldn't say (the puck) was going in early, but I haven’t changed one thing, I'm still doing the exact same thing, it's just finding a little bit more success right now.
It’s been a great year for our team and as of late, it’s picking it up a little bit for myself. Hopefully, we can just keep trending into the second half of the year here.
EP: How important is that trust between a coach and a player and how is it developed?
MT: I just think that he's always given me the right leeway, but still expects me to play the right way. He knows that there's some parts of my game that (are unique) I need to maybe take a little bit more chances than the average player. He gives me full leeway to do that, but also expects me to work my butt off and to lead by example.
EP: We always talk about “buy-in,” it's kind of cliché at this point, and you guys obviously have that factor. But how does something like that start?
MT: I just think being so close to winning it all last year has made it very, very easy to come back this year and have that immediate buy-in from the guys wanting to win a championship here. So many returning guys who are so close and so upset with not finishing it off. There's a lot of motivation.
EP: Do you have a favourite moment from last season's run?
MT: I would say, probably all of the series-clinching wins, the series-winning goals. The overtime winner in Boston, the overtime winner in Toronto, the last second one at home against Carolina.
All three of those are by far the greatest goals I've ever been a part of.
EP: I feel like we're not as a society talking about Sam Bennett enough. Can you give us a little bit about what he's like off the ice and what it's like to play with him?
MT: He just plays so hard.
He was one of the first guys I met when coming to Calgary, and we've been so close ever since. I'm so happy that we got to play together again down here in Florida. He was the first guy I talked to when I got traded, and we've just been so close for eight-plus years now.
It’s so fun that we're able to play with each other still, we just have such great chemistry on and off the ice. He just plays so hard and he complements my game so well. And off the ice, we're just super close and have a great group of guys that pretty much do everything together away from the rink.
It makes it so much fun to come to the rink every day, work with them, and then when we leave the rink, do stuff together.
EP: If you became the commissioner of the league today, what's the first thing you'd change?
MT: Overtime until somebody scores. No shootouts. And no back-to-backs. I don't know if we need any more back-to-backs right now.
EP: Other than you, who has the best chirps in the league?
MT: I'd say the guy who chirps a lot on our team is Brandon Montour. He has some good ones. Nick Cousins has got some good ones. (Ryan) Lomberg, too. They all have some good ones.
EP: Best advice your dad ever gave you?
MT: Two things: Compete and be a good teammate.
EP: Last year you gained some recognition outside of the hockey world, and it kind of sparked, like, a debate about personality in the NHL. I've always wondered What you actually think about this whole conversation, like, do you like being kind of the personality guy in the NHL?
MT: Well, I’m never going to not be myself. I grew up with great parents that taught me great things and around a great family. I’ll carry that for the rest of my life. I’m not trying to do anything, and some guys are (quieter) and that’s OK. This is just how my personality is.
EP: Can you give me three words to describe the current Panthers?
MT: Oh, I would say very fast. So fast. Close – we’re a super close team. I've never seen a team like this where, you know, we're going to dinner on the road and we're having, you know, 15 people reservations and everybody hanging out with each other. it's been awesome. Fast, close, and fun. Nobody has more fun than our team.
#matthew tkachuk#FAST CLOSE AND FUN#i'm beside myself thanks#his relationship with paul makes me sooooooo#florida panthers#2324
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tl;dr: orv anime leads to game, i am coping and cooking
see, i woke up today and had a revelation about the orv anime.
yes, it's going to bring in a lot of people i wouldn't want to touch with a ten foot pole because that just happens when it happens when a good series gets an anime. but ALSO it means that the possibility of an orv game, or a collaboration with a game is infinitely more possible.
you see, solo levelling got a game a bit after the anime came out. admittedly, i've tried it and i don't love it, but the same could theoretically happen for orv, since the fandom is already popular enough.
(is the game likely to be good? probably not?? but like, the thought of an orv game is...)
secondly, the possibilities of game collaborations, even if orv doesn't get a game, is also significantly increased. most games that do collaborations are either with other games or popular anime.
(coping that one day one of the games i love will do a collaboration with orv, or that orv will come out with a banger game,, like dungeon meshi is doing a collab with arknights and i WOULD DIE for an orv collab for arknights, like genuinely die and soul ascend and i)
#omniscient reader's viewpoint#orv#yin thinks#am i cooking or am i just delusional#maybe it's time to take my delulu pills#but i feel like i'm making some sense right?#besides the series getting animated itself i do know that some people (myself included) were worried about the influx of fans#so this is my coping mechanism thanks
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omg you guys...
bad idea is almost at 1k notes 🥹
#idek what to say#i feel like i've said thank you so many times#but it's way more than that#i'm beside myself#😭😭😭
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the fake twitter trolls alicent reads are really so excellent like your brain being capable of making fake-mean tweets for a fake movie in your fan fiction feel real and compelling and also based on the irl reception to alicent/ olivia cooke's portrayal
me sitting down to imagine what psychos must think of olivia cooke
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so.
i usually don't do this- don't go on long rants about shows unless they're headcannons. but i got spoiled for the 9-1-1 episode today (i have to wait for hulu) and just doomed scrolled for thirty minutes trying to figure out what the fuck happened.
i don't think i've ever had this much of an visceral reaction to a show or any type of media before. like to the point where i'm in tears about this, and i don't cry over media easily, which ik, i'm a stranger on the interent how can you believe me? I guess i'm asking for you to just do.
i started this show bc of bucktommy. because of buck's bisexuality being canonized and it being done right.
i write articles for my school's newspaper and i'm in the process of writing one about bierasure in media. this was planned earlier this week, before i even got spoiled, and i was praising 9-1-1 for having good bisexual representation and how rare it is to actually have it. a as well, i have done full essays and projects on the importance of queer representation in media, which combing with my current article, is honestly why i am so upset abt the bucktommy break-up and Oliver Stark's interview.
frankly, i'll even admit when i first started the show and watched season seven for the first time, i wanted buck and tommy to 'break-up' for at least a little bit so buck can go on other dates and figure out and understand his sexuality even more. i understand not everyone is like this, that some people are able to find their match and stick with it, but i also understand how helpful it is for others to figure out themselves and what they want out of their relationship/others from dating other people.
this is buck's first mlm relationship. and he was so utterly in love with tommy, but we also know that when buck falls in love he falls hard. and we know from what little we've seen of tommy's background he's longing for a family, to the point where he might be terrified to actually have one.
i really do hope they end up reconnecting buck and tommy in some way, shape, or form. selfishly, i hope we see tommy being happy, whether with or without buck.
i really really hope they don't erase buck's bisexuality. at this point, i don't care if stark does what he wants with the character and has buck sleep around again, even though we've been through that storyline. if it does happen, then i hope it's because it's a coping mechanism for buck, not because he's figuring himself out. it'll be different if he goes on dates/etc.
i think a lot of the reason why this break-up feels so fucking shitty is because of the election this week. also the poor writting, according to tumblr.
i have a lot of feels for an episode that i haven't watched yet and in some way that terrifies me. i don't think i ever expected myself to be this connected to a silly little show. i have never felt this way after other terrible endings for shows/media that i had loved for years (marvel, star wars, ninjago) the only other type of media i cried over this year was a book, which is because of how it dealt with mental health and a parent-child relationship involving mental health.
i think in some way, i feel so connected to it bc of the projects i've done about queer representation and the article i'm writing rn. i don't know if i've ever been this disapointed in show that wasn't for a cancellation.
i really do hope buck finds his true love one day. and some part of me really hopes it's tommy. or at least another one (or two) really good male relationships for him. i just don't want to see his bisexuality be erased.
#thank you for coming to my TEDTalk#i know i repeated myself a bit here please ignore#i seriously don't know if i've ever been this disapointed in a show before#and like i don't know the abby storyline they went w/ besides the fact that tommy was engaged to her#which tbh even then is kinda realistic bc i had a lesbian aunt who was engaged to a man but broke it off#idk when this happened bc she died in 2009 but yeah#i just really fucking hope they don't erase buck's bisexuality#i think that's what will really make me give up hope for this show#and i'm not saying i'm an expert in queer represenation in media or bierasure bc of how much shit i've researched for it#i'm just saying that it fucking sucks to be connected to a show that you thought would be really good representation#911#911 abc#911 spoilers#911 season 8#bucktommy#evan buckley#bisexual evan buckley#tommy kinard
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How to find me in other place:search for "xemnas178"
(but my name is phillip karfere:3I hope you can call me phill or phillip
I think maybe I'll never update the blog.Or until they fix the mistake,I'll come back.But who knows?
can't find my page or posts in search results of Joachim=kill me :/
↑anyway put a injured Walter that I didn't post here🙃
#Thank you very much#I'm poor at express myself#Whatever the result be my anger and disappointment will not disappear:/How can them get rid of me beside Joachim?as like I never exist#appreciated everyone who cares about me
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quick road stop 🚗
feat. @pinkyjulien's bbs 🧡
#cyberpunk 2077#cp2077 photomode#cp2077 screenshots#Panam Palmer#Mitch Anderson#Dante Alkan#Valentin da Silva#Male V#Corpo V#Nomad V#Panam x V#Mitch x V#otp: high voltage#Cyberpunk Nibbles#Nibbles#halk.png#pinkydude#pinkyjulien#hi this is a love letter to this stinky ass motherfucker that I adore so#thank you for being my friend <3#also yes I noticed Val's floating bottle LOL#it's okay. I don't want it to be perfect#I just want the good feels of doing things for my friends and enjoying myself#I'm tired of perfect flawless things#besides we can just pretend Val is drunk af already and dropped his drink :)))#ship: dante x panam
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Hello crystal ! I hope u r doing well and taking care of yourself .. just the most random thought I can't seem to get out of my head as of lately .... Parallels between drummer boy and henry cavill pls I need to know someone else also sees it and I am not just crazy
I don't think you're crazy! It's something about their mannerisms, maybe? It's so funny I was lowkey obsessed with Mission Impossible: Fallout the summer it came out (like I saw it in theaters 5x obsessed 😂😭) so I'm not sure if this is something I've actually thought before or if it just makes sense but when I read your ask my brain was auto like "oh yeah, of course" so 😅🤷🏻♀️
#besides the obvious parallel of them both being large beefy hunky dudes 🙂↕️#also hello! I'm trying my best to take care of myself but this month has been absurd and I can't wait for January to be over tbqh 😅🫠#thank you for checking in! i hope you're doing well 😌🫶🏻#ask#anon
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#me quietly to myself: am i finally ready... to follow the skz people blogs I've been living at for at least a year now anyway?..#I'm with my usual bullshit pay me no mind#people who already know know ajhsjd#this thing where i can't follow new people because the dash seems overwhelming as it is#(and by new people i mean people whose blogs I've been visiting daily for a year yes)#and recently yes im feeling like my dash is actually a bit overwhelming#i sometimes can't even catch up with it after i wake up (a thing that is normal to want and possible to archive)#but also im literally like at the skz people's territory all day every day#spending more time over there than on my dash#like maybe it's time#besides today with the livestream and everything#i was sitting there so cozy thinking like ah we're watching this together it's so nice#the only thing that would make the experience better is me actually FOLLOWING PEOPLE#anyway I'll sleep on it and like again pay me no mind this is the brain issues i just seem to have#still such a funny problem to have#as far as I'm concerned most people on tumblr follow so many more blogs#and i get overwhelmed with just a few#you'd think I'm not having fun on here but thats not true#but i am in fact always have more fun on here when i manage to psspspsp someone with the same interest#i love tags reblogs replies i love these interactions#and the funny little follow button makes all this so muuuuch easier#alas the brain bugs that are eating my brain are never asleep#but still I'm gonna go sleep and im gonna just be chill about all this#thanks for coming to the least making sense ted talk#chattering
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#edel vents#disclaimer: really personal issues in the tags. also wishes of death upon others. this is PROBABLY too much information tbh...#so if you're not up for it scroll down fast!!!! the deluge is coming!!!#today was... eventful. bad. also very bad. grandma's birthday celebration was today#and while she... definitely has Old People Issues (racist) shes also very lonely since the death of my grandfather so i can't really not go#i'm the only one who really visits her regularly to begin with#aside from the... very serious racism issue... she's “alright”. i guess. but that's besides the point. there's family there#and among those... my parents. which i don't like to talk to#discovered they threw more of my old stuff away. typical. wanted to strangle them. as usual.#had to “talk” with my mother (read: spend approximately ten seconds reciting exactly why i *don't* talk to her anymore)#so that whole ordeal completely soured my mood.#went home tired. can't really do anything right now.#at least the food was good i guess. but i also really want to cry... which i can't. which sucks.#...i really like to think i've improved as a person. i used to be really hateful of everything and everyone#worst of all myself. still kinda do but i'm... getting better..?#i like to think i've grown past most of it but every time i see my parents i feel this gripping at my heart. as if i haven't really changed#as if instead i'm still the hateful person i “always was” deep down... bc there's this visceral joy that i feel whenever i'm mad at them.#when i looked at my mother and told her how much i despise her i felt a shiver of happiness. righteousness.#to be clear: i do NOT care for her. at all. she's the worst person on this earth#and the only person whom my philosophy of “nobody deserves to die” does NOT apply to. i'm not scared of hating her.#she genuinely deserves this. but...every time i see my parents - and thus her... i feel as if i'm slipping back into that mindset of hatred#i don't want that. not anymore. it consumed me whole. i was a horrible person back then and i've caused so much grief for so many#i can't let go of this hatred. i can't forgive them. they don't deserve my forgiveness anyway. but i'm tired of hating.#i'm tired of letting that hatred define me. i'm tired of letting that hatred direct me. i'm tired of letting it bring me to ruin.#i'm tired of being who i was. i'm no longer “that”. i'm edel now and i'm happy for people now. if i don't like something i just walk out.#i can just leave. “if it sucks hit the bricks” right?.. but i didn't. i had to say it. i had to tell them. her. and i liked it.#and... i'm scared of that. because it tells me i haven't improved.#i'm not sure what i'm expecting out of posting this i guess. maybe help. maybe i wanna be told that this is normal or something.#maybe i just want to get my thoughts in order. i don't know. i'm gonna stop writing now.#sorry for making you read all this. thanks for doing it anyway. tags were cut off on this one btw so it may look like a mess. but. yeah.
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Hey!! I just wanna say I LOVE your Hazbin art, especially your Alastor redesign I am in love with it!! Especially the granny glasses and the ponytail they're PERFECT ahsbsidbsj
Ik it says in your f&q that it's okay to use your art as a pfp with credit, so I am, but I just wanna make sure this is enough? Or if you'd rather I do something else too I don't wanna step on any toes lol
Looking at him just brings me great joy I need you to know that, it's Wonderful
But yeah if you'd rather I do more/something else please let me know!! I know credit is really important to artists and I don't wanna screw it up
Awwww It's so sweet of you!! Thank you so much! My heart melts when i hear that someone looks at my art this way 🥺💖💖
AND OF COURSE!! I always appreciate any form of giving me credit! It's perfect the way it is! :]
#I usually don't even care as much if someone doesn't mention me in their bio or something#i know how it all works#i'm used to it at this point honestly lol#BUT if someone does mention me i'm so happy!! I always appreciate it a ton!#So the fact that you even reached out to me about it means a lot!! :]#Thanks again <3#my asks#besides#for eg. if i see art piece that i really like and there's “no artist”#i just go and try to look them up by myself and so I believe some people do the same ;] so i'm just really chill about it!
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hello random people on the internet. i really prefer to keep this stuff private and keep this blog pretty upbeat, but desperate times, desperate measures, etc. anyway could you please do me a favor and remind me that it's okay to eat and i should. it will genuinely help A LOT right now.
#screaming into the void#my nerves are so shot that i can barely keep anything down. i'm so hungry but when i try to eat i don't want to. threw up last night. ughgh#going to go distract myself with poto shit while i shove oatmeal down my throat and try not to taste it#thanks in advance to anyone who does this. it will help. i just need the reminder and it feels more real coming from someone besides me
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an unexpected consequence of not isolating urself and actually hanging out with friends is that people want to hang out with you all the time
#ive never like. had this many friends before#everyone wants to Do Things#and like. I do like doing things!!#But also I like my alone time. This is very new#im doing so many things!! im talking to so many people!! what the fuck!!!#dude last semester I could go like a entire week without talking to anyone besides saying thank you to the cashier#which isn't. Good per say#but like. hngfffhjjrjfk#i don't know what 2 do with myself lmao#I want to hang out with all of them but also I want to not#lilac post#two different people have asked to do things w/ me tonight and I'm like hnbvvvjj
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A little spoiler of what I got going on for the next chapter of An Ice Toa But Human rewrite (cut is there for those who don't wanna read it if spoilers)
The silence in the air was heavy as they processed how confused Mata Nui was at his own powers.
"Well it seems to be going better for you than me with this shadow stuff." Sapphira said breaking the silence, leaning a bit as the others stared at her.
However, the leaning was unsteady even for a teenage prima ballerina causing Sapphira to fall with a squeal and flailing arms trying to regain her balance to no avail.
But instead of hitting the ground Sapphira's body disappeared in almost a cloud of black smoke and merged into the shadows.
"SAPPHIRA!" "KID?!" "WHAT THE PLUDE?!" "OKAY THAT'S NOT NORMAL!"
The five were shocked and scared to a various degree along with various worries (from Ackar, Kiina and Mata Nui), more shocked than scared (from Gresh), and vice versa (from Berix) which wasn't exactly helping the situation.
A shadowy figure sat up rubbing their head as plumes of dark shadow left their person similar to how steam would leave boiling waters surface into the cool air. One eye cracked open showing it was a dark violet purple in color. "Owww, that actually hurt like a bitch." Sapphira's voice came from the figure.
"Sapphira?!" The five asked in sync. "Yeah that's my name, don't wear it out, what's-" The said bluette cut herself off noticing her form change making her scream bloody murder.
"OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO ME?!" Sapphira panicked, gripping at her whispy shadow head.
#oh hi i finally have motivation to work on Ice Toa series since the last chapter was posted HOURS before my old man cat died last year#then in February my other cat died of a broken heart and i just couldn't bring myself to work on it or wsit some chapters because-#i kept thinking back at how that chapter was made hours prior to waking up to my cat i grew up with slowly dying only hanging on laying#beside me waiting for me to wake up so i could say my goodbyes I'm still not over it thank you very much I had him since i was 6yrs old#and he's been there practically my entire life and watched me grew up i called him my Turaga#so this spoiler is made as an apology for such a long “break” from the book#bionicle#g1 bionicle#lego bionicle#the legend reborn#bionicle the legend reborn#bionicle fanfiction#ice toa series#an ice toa but human#toa mata nui#mata nui#ackar#kiina#gresh#berix#sapphira aquamarine (oc)#fic teaser#ficblogging#fic blogging
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please forgive me, but I need to complain and over-share or my brain is going to explode please feel free to ignore
#I'm not doing well.#the last two places I worked (in a tourism-adjacent sector) closed. broadly speaking due to post-lockdown financial issues#for the past year at my current job I've been earning less than half what I used to. this was the only offer I got at the time and#I haven't found anything better since. this is not sustainable I'm barely making it each month...#I live with my parents and cancelled my health insurance I don't know how else to reduce my budget. it's depressing tbh#the solution is obviously to find a better job but that's just not happening and I'm beginning to feel discouraged.#I hate being negative it's a very unattractive character trait but I just feel myself slipping and spiraling#I know I should be taking short courses or volunteering to boost my cv but like when ! and how !#I can't afford to work less but I get home at 20h so even evening courses are tricky. I work every other saturday too so weekends are out#and like I do need to rest at some point you can't be depressed and burnt out that's a terrible combo#was looking at a dtp/typesetting short course and 1) I'll need a new computer that can actually run design programs#and 2) the course itself is like 2 month's salaries which I cannot realistically save right now#and yet I'm still ''over-qualified'' for entry level positions because I went to uni. well maybe that's just a polite excuse#because as interesting as my humanities degrees were they didn't equip me with any practical or marketable skills#besides being good at reading and writing. but AI can do that for free now so that's not helpful#I always thought I was reasonably intelligent but I cannot solve this puzzle. there must be a creative solution that I'm missing#but i feel so stuck and trapped#and at least once a week some poor soul stumbles in to the office practically begging for a job so I feel bad for complaining#a little truly is better than nothing#but thank god we elected more pro-business capitalists into government that really is going to be great for us workers (sarcasm)#also I should acknowledge#I am getting some déjà vu. I feel like I've vented about this topic before#the difference is. back then it was a potential concern. now the concern has materialised into reality and rendered the situation desperate
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I would like to take this moment (shitty glue has to dry - so a very looong moment) to thank ppl who leave nice messages about my art in the tags <3<3<3
#I printed a bunch of the merlinktober ones#and I'm gluing them beside the actual art :)#which looks really neat#if I say so myself#so to all creatives:#print out some of your online comments#and glue them where you will see them#BUT POSSIBLY WITH A BETTER GLUE#do not buy mitama glue peeps XD#strong DO NOT reccomend#it is so sticky#stringy#and never dries#not only bc I'm in humidity hell XD#uhu dried way faster lol#anyway#thanks peeps#not only do I read you#I cherish all the nice things you wrote ^^#<3<3<3<3#positive#moss text#fandom
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